“The Sword in your hands that cuts off everything less than love.”
keening
is a traditional form of vocal lament for the dead in the Gaelic Celtic tradition
sharp, shrill
LEAD-IN
There is no doubt that thoughts are material. We work with our thoughts, we transform our subconscious, and as a result, - we change our reality.
All you need is to find an efficient tool for programming your subconscious.
Through spiritual practices, we develop an intimate connection with the Heart chakra, releasing negativity so more Light can shine throughout our hearts. That is the primary intention behind any practice.
YOU decide how you want to purify your Heart: following a slow pace, a fast pace, a smooth one, or an intensive one, depending on your temperament and way of living.
The tool I created doesn't fit everyone, and it shouldn't. The concept is radical and requires a strong will.
A radical approach is the most suitable for my character - therefore, this program has a drastic core.
By cleansing our Minds and Hearts, we release Inner Knowledge. Don’t search for it in the outside world.
Knowledge comes if you make space for it. You become a clear transmitter, and the Source speaks to you and through you to those ready to listen.
I would describe this practice as a sobering kick that tears off the illusions and brings the responsibilities back to you.
It is a mind-blowing cold shower that wakes you from years of sleep.
It is a chance to taste YOUR OWN power by simply taking off a bandage from your eyes so you can finally see. You are not a victim. You can switch your role at any second.
“I SEE THE PATTERN SO I MAKE A CHOICE”
The Inner Wild Aspect. Cycles of destructive family patterns. The Ancestors. Dance.
THE ANCESTORS AND FAMILY PATTERNS
Breaking the cycle of destructive family patterns and conscious reunion with the Ancestors is the base of the practice. When I began my inner work, I didn't know which part of my life needed healing the most. All I knew was that my spirit craved healing.
After doing meditations and other practices, I realized the process was too shallow. And then, I looked at my life from the perspective of my family’s wounds. That was a moment of revelation.
I had been observing the way the patterns of my family impacted my life. I could see that the lineage patterns are strong.
The process of acknowledging the patterns, destroying them, and rebuilding a new system of values might take a lot of time. Patterns are like rocks on the way of the stream of Ancestral blessings.
Without the additional help of the Inner Wild Aspect, it becomes very challenging to break through because some patterns enslave generations for decades. That is how the concept was created: enlisting the support of a fearless side in order to destroy the cycle of unhealthy family patterns faster.
We, word for word, cut off the old programs with a sword in our hands.
Here is when the Inner Wild is stepping in.
The Inner Wild is the element to integrate into the experience and reconnect with primal instincts. We carefully explore the connection until the trust is built.
Why do we awaken the Inner Wild?
Finding peace, support, and stability from within is powerful. Becoming a healer for yourself makes you unstoppable and independent on your life journey.
Know yourself and your true Nature. When we calm the mind, the inner voice reveals itself.
A Woman represents the wisdom of Nature. She can embody all its variety: animals, plants, and the elements. She embodies their qualities for a deep understanding of herself.
Disunity disappears.
Everything we need to know is inside of us.
Our responsibility is to clean the body and mind and start hearing the inner wisdom.
It is available to everybody willing to listen.
People are disconnected from their true desires because fear, anxiety, and anger speak too loudly.
The Inner Wild Aspect helps to RELEASE. Release and destroy the old. Cut off the unnecessary so you have space to build a new foundation. Sometimes we don't have enough will to make a radical change. The beauty of this practice is that all you need to do is reconnect with your raw potential.
Is it safe to connect with the Inner Wild Aspect?
I help to look inward. It is that simple. We don't search for power out of our bodies and spirits. We make space and welcome a wise, ancient part of ourselves. If we never address it, it doesn't mean it doesn’t exist.
I hold space for the participants, creating a protected container so nothing can bother them from the outside world.
Yes. It is safe.
Since we are barely connected to their Inner Wild, we might experience resistance to merging with it, thinking we embody something alien.
Our subconscious may show us powerful images. But it shows only our hidden power, raw potential, nothing else.
The Inner Wild speaks to us through generations. Its whisper runs through millions of years.
Movements are an essential part of the practice.
I strongly believe any spiritual transformation is not truly complete without involving the body.
Most of the time, our focus is on the energy shift itself, and we barely embody that shift in the physical vessel.
When the spirit is ready to elevate and release the old, the body can slow down the process because it is not prepared for the next step.
Repressed emotions and old experiences that get stuck in the body may cause a lack of energy and an inability to move forward.
That is why we clean the body to create space for something qualitatively new.
DANCE
the body is the key to the releasing process
Dance is the most natural way to welcome the Inner Wild aspect. Through dancing, we explore it playfully.
Here is when the mind takes the back seat, and intuition leads us.
Improvisation becomes a speaking tool.
Improvisation and following the body always was the scariest thing for me. Showing true feelings/emotions through body expressions can be uncomfortable and terrifying.
And the more we dig under the surface, the more naturally the Inner Wild expresses itself.
WHAT TO KNOW BEFORE DECIDING TO BECOME A PARTICIPANT:
FEEL THE CALL. If the concept of awakening the Inner Wild doesn't give you chills all over your body and you are not naturally drawn toward it or, at least, you don’t experience sincere curiosity, then the practice might not be for you.
Be FULLY AWARE that in this experience your BODY is your main tool. Half of the practice will require engaging the body. There will be breath techniques with partial movements, somatic work, and dancing practices. You regulate the intensity, but a healthy physical condition is essential.
You will be encouraged to step out of your comfort zone. Your growth and inner revelations are on the other side of shyness and comfort. Your willingness to do so is the key to successful practice.
You will be asked to sign a waiver and let us know about any health issues before reserving your spot so we can make a final decision.
YOU ARE A GOOD FIT FOR THE PRACTICE IF:
You are ready to become your own Healer and support provider.
You want to experience your raw potential in its full expression and embody the qualities of natural wild beings.
You experience difficulty in accepting your parents the way they are.
You feel blame, anger, or shame toward your family.
You want to improve your relationship with your parents but you don’t know where or how to start.
You lost your sense of belonging and feel alone in the world.
You crave to release negative emotions from your Heart and your Body.
You sense the lack of Will and motivation to change something in your life.
You want to break destructive family patterns.
You are carrying wounding childhood memories.
WHAT OUTCOME TO EXPECT FROM PARTICIPATING
You activate your inner potential and have access to limitless strength and courage.
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You recognize a destructive family pattern and activate intuitive healing.
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You create space and welcome the ancient wisdom that speaks directly to you.
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You bond with your Ancestors. Loneliness and separation recede.
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You understand more deeply your family story by purifying your Heart from blame.
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You feel honored to represent your lineage.
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You feel comfortable voicing your truth and experiencing yourself without worrying what others might think.
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You develop new habits that lay the base for new life values.
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You give a chance for future generations to live differently by reprogramming your DNA.
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Your body feels lighter and happier without the weight of suppressed emotions.
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You feel ALIVE in your body. You become playful and bold.
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Your Root Chakra gets activated, positively impacting your Health and the flow of Abundance.
MY STORY…
My name is Diana Gilmutdinova.
I was born and raised in the Republic of Tatarstan, in the Eastern European part of Russia. I'm Tatar, Bashkir, Russian, and Ukrainian, with Greek&Balkan, Western Asian, and Native American ancestry, according to my DNA test. My mother graduated as a biologist. My father devoted most of his life to teaching striking arts and headed one of the largest karate schools in our republic. He was a spiritual seeker, intuitively discovering his truth and sharing wisdom with many students. As a child, I was surrounded by his dozens of esoteric books: Osho Rajnees, Eckhart Tolle, George Gurdjieff, and Jiddu Krishnamurti.
My father was alone on his journey with no teachers or communities with supportive souls, which impacted his ability to be at peace with his knowledge. His rejection of reality and, as a consequence - his alcohol addiction - didn't allow him to be a full-fledged father and husband, which also influenced my childhood and shook my family values. He died of abdominal cancer when I was 22.
I graduated from Kazan State University as a lawyer. My specialization is arbitration courts. I always had respect for laws and any kinds of rules and systems (Saturn speaks loud, running my Aquarius sign.) Justice, honesty, decency, and loyalty are in my blood. I stick to these qualities, trying to develop them within myself, and I expect the same from people. Becoming a lawyer was the most proper path at that time.
After working for three years as a layer, I realized that my soul didn’t fully enjoy it. I started to feel that my potential and purpose were beyond it. Something called me. I began to travel by myself and visited many European and middle eastern countries, including Indonesia and Cuba, looking for my purpose, getting to know myself, and breaking my old beliefs. Diving into different cultures helped me to embrace my spiritual aspiration. In 2016 my spirit guides brought me to Southern California, where my inner work began.
One of my first conscious steps toward profound healing was integration with plant medicines led by a professional team with a shaman Taita Juan Yaiguaje in Granby, Colorado, in 2018, who had already past away. At that moment, I was experiencing tremendous anger and resentment toward my dad. It all surfaced after years of terrifying childhood, and I didn't know where to hide from my feelings. I needed help in letting it all out. The plant medicine experience became a release for my soul. It brought the understanding that the healing process starts with working with the basis: the relationship with my parents, which later turned into a framework of my offerings. I knew it was time to look inward and listen. And what I heard is that my body is craving to move.
I was barely involved in dancing until the age of 27. My body naturally knew how to dance, but I was never passionate about dancing. Moreover, I never applied any spiritual meaning to it. I have started taking dancing classes in Los Angeles, focusing on my hips and feminine movements, allowing myself to express my sexuality. After a while, my sexual energy started talking to me, running all over my body. Something has shifted. I consciously watched how dancing affected my emotions. By carefully listening to my lower body, I noticed that simple hip circles could change my self-awareness. I dived into the feminine. A tiny inner voice made its appearance. It wasn't loud enough so I added meditation to my daily routine. I figured I needed to clean the unnecessary from the inside in order to start hearing my inner truth.
Due to inner work, I provoked cycles of emotional breakdowns connected to the old repressed struggles and situations from my childhood and adolescence. It kept arising, and I wasn't always ready for that. Only after ten years I realized how strong those emotions were and that I still carry them throughout all these years even though my mind told me the opposite. Within the next few years, I was constantly working on my inner peace, destroying my old habits, letting go, and analyzing my relationships with my parents, friends, and lovers. Meditation removed most of my anxiety and blame, bringing more inner freedom for creation.
I could finally hear my true desires without being blinded by destructive programs. I kept moving my body, which allowed me to be flexible in my mind releasing the emotional weight from my shoulders. Meanwhile, I went through a second wave of anger and aggression. This time, toward my mom. A lot of blame caused a deeper exploration of my family. The most beautiful insights came to me through that challenging time.
I would call 2020 a turning point in my spiritual awakening. Something powerful started to constantly send me the information about the concept I needed to give birth to. I felt connected to the larger consciousness and downloaded everything by looking inward and listening. I was afraid to frighten away the flow of information. I decided to hide myself from everything, suppressing any affection from the outside world, that could change my vision.
As a result of constant meditation, I cleared enough space to welcome the ancient wisdom in my bones, the ancestral wisdom of my lineages. But I didn't realize it right away. I started to get incoherent visions while meditating: images of wild animals, fire, hand drums, ritual dancing, wild forest, hunting, and the primitive way of life. It would pop in unexpectedly. I didn’t ask about it. It became an obsession. Not for weeks or months. For years. I waited enough time to make sure. I was running from it, denying it. It didn’t go away.
I could feel the pressure of taking action and stepping into it, but I wasn't ready. I decided to take it slow and follow my gut. While putting the information together into something solid, I went through several depressions. Isolation, walking my path alone, and lack of support/understanding from the outside influenced my mental state. My mom was always with me through that time, even without fully understanding what I was experiencing.
In April 2021, I got a chance to meet my shamanic teacher, Liana Xochitl Soria, who "saved my life" by offering to attend her training in Idyllwild, CA. Being surrounded by like-minded people and learning from them uplifted my soul in the most healing way. I confirmed that everything I previously received from the source wasn't a figment of my imagination but a call of my purpose.
I deepened the connection with my intuition and the unseen world. While going through my training, one more fateful meeting occurred. In June 2021, I met Erin Kerr, a spiritual leader in Wildomar, CA, a wise, kind, yet brave woman. I shared my dream about healing through dance, reconnecting with the inner power, and returning to nature, our roots, and the ancestors. Erin not only supported my idea but offered her property, giving me everything she could. Our meeting marked the beginning of a profound, productive work. For the next year and a half, I facilitated seven dancing ceremonies aimed toward healing family wounds through reconnecting with the inner wild woman.
After each practice, I analyzed the result, painstakingly adding something new and adjusting my offering based on the participants' feedback and the outcome I could observe. Each ceremony was unique. The working process revealed more information until it felt complete. My first steps were terrifying. I wasn't sure what I was doing and where it was taking me. Self-doubts and emotional ups and downs significantly slowed down the creative process. But women loosen themselves and connect to their Inner Wild Woman, motivated to keep going.
In 2022 the Ancestral Lineage Healing course by Daniel Foor, Ph.D., a ritualist, and educator, also added a great perspective to my offering. The connection with my ancestors through his practices rooted my aspiration to make ancestral healing the base of my offering. In 2023 after gathering experience and merging all the pieces, I gave birth to the program I worked on for years so those who hear the call can benefit from it and change life direction most radically.
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